Why does it feel like everytime something good happens
something awful has to happen to screw it up?
Why does Mom not understand how manipulative
and just out of control Rhone is?
Why does she not see that I know he is having
so many problems and is angry?
Why does she not do something instead of
claiming to do something?
Why does she let him go on being out of control,
breaking things, and screaming at people?
Why does she get mad at me for trying to
control him?
Why does she get mad at me when I'm the
only one doing something for him in this
fucking house?
Why do these stupid radio show hosts keep
talking about things that don't matter?
Why am I so angry at everyone and so emotional
and vulnerable?
Why does nobody read this blog?
Why do I care if people read this?
Why does Timothy act like he's the only one hurting?
Why does Paula look down on me?
Why do Jana, Paula, and Jamie exclude me
from conversations because I'm different?
Why can't my dad hold a job and not be depressed?
Why did Will get into drugs?
Why did "Jim" fuck me over and use me?
Why won't Skylar see what a douchebag "Jim" is?
Why won't Marcos fuck off!
Why doesn't Nima understand that I like him?
Why am I too shy to ask him?
Why can't I stop making mistake after mistake?
Why doesn't something wonderful happen for once?
Why am I bitch to people?
Why can't I just trust?
Why can't I show people how much I really
care and love them?
Why can't anybody just hold me?
Why doesn't anyone understand?
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- Sarah Beatrice
- I am 17 yrs old and I love to write. I'm always writing. I hide my emotions from everyone because I don't like to seem vulnerable and weak. So, my poetry is really my only outlet. There is so much more to me than most people think and that's what this blog is for.
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2 comments:
Because that's just life.
:)
1: Because life isn't fair
2: because she's trying hard to make it easier for him
3: I'm sure she does your mom's extremely perceptive, remember she's hurting just as much if not more than the rest of you
4: depression is a bitch
5: because she understands that he needs to get it out of his system now rather than later
6: because she doesn't want him to resent you and she loves you both
7: because depression's a bitch
8: because if they talked about things that mattered no one would listen
9: because you're 17 and there's no other answer
10: oh I think they do
11: because you want people to know you for who you really are without having to physically show it
12: because that's the kind of hurt he's feeling, he'll come around
13: well I can't answer that question just remember that no matter what you are only as wonderful as you let yourself be.
14: because people are afraid of things they don't understand
15: well... I'd say he's a bum but at least he loves you
16: b/c some people can't stand the pressure that life throws at them
17: because some people don't know how to appreciate those that care
18: does she love him?
19: because he's a controller who sees your vulnerability
20: Maybe he does
21: because you're afraid he'll say no
22: partially b/c you're a teenager and partially b/c life can not get better without mistakes to learn from
23: because you're looking for something wonderful to happen, when you give up hope and stop looking something (or someone) wonderful will come along
24: because you're 17 and you think and know that people often don't understand that you have feelings too
25: because you've had a lot of shit thrown your way, it's easy to lose trust it's the gaining it that's the hard part *don't let go of your inhibitions*
26: I think you probably show more than you know, you're a poet who probably wears a lot of love on her face
27: because the time just isn't right, be patient
28: I think you'll find that more people understand than you give credit, sometimes it's just that they're so involved in their own problems that they forget that you're there too
<3 Tiff
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